So you want to know about me? Well, let me try to sum me
up.
Who: Erika. I'm a
quiet and
soft-spoken person. Though I may often be stoic, I'm
a happy and easy-going person. I'm not some pretentious
bitch-goddess and I practically
never lose my temper. I don't like clubbing or bar-hopping or
that sort of thing, and I'm
perfectly content to be a homebody. I'm very shy. I enjoy
writing and sometimes drawing. I majored in art, but alas, I'm
not all that good at it. I read a great deal (some
favorites are Clive Barker and Jack Vance) and I like horror movies
(big surprise). I smoke. I am something of a geek. I
do not fit in
and I don't want to. I'm a cat person, though I have no
cats. I collect masks,
like feminine mardis gras and Venetian
masks, and porcelain jester and goth dolls. I'm an unconflicted
mixture of
dark and light.. I like
kittens and dandelions as well as horror and degredation. I'm
very
gentle and considerate when I'm not indulging my cruel streak.
And I can be both cruel and sweet at the same time. I'm
sentimental. Sometimes, I'm even
witty. Oh, I'm 34, and I will remain so
until next year.
What: I'm a transgendered
lesbian. That means I was born a
boy but am taking steps to remedy that unfortunate twist if fate.
So far I've had many years' worth of hormones, so I do have small
breasts. I had laser
electrolysis many times (which didn't take) so I'm having to do it the
old
fashioned way. I don't have the psychological
need for genital reconstructive surgery, so I'll be keeping that part. I can't say that
I'm 100% female in identity, I'm more of a feminine androgyne..
somewhere in between genders both physically and mentally. I've
been in the
D/s scene for a long time, and have been a live-in sub in the past,
myself. I'm at a point in my life now where I'm more comfortable
being dominant. I'm a freak and a pervert and proud of it..
though it does make certain aspects of life more troublesome.
Where: I live in Little
Rock, Arkansas - a place with many
trees. It's not so bad, but it gets awfully mosquito-ish in the
summer. There's certainly not much available here in the
kink/fetish arena, so one has to entertain oneself. I live in a
nice, quiet part of town with a nice view. I've been remodeling
my house to update it a bit, and to make it more bdsm-friendly.
Look at me, I'm nesting! There's still more to be done,
though. Picture of recently
remodeled bedroom. It turned
out well, though a little redder than I anticipated. And here's
some of the new kitchen. Very
purple. And here's a couple of my new cage (pay no mind to the
scary 70's linoleum- it's long gone) cage1,
cage2. Here are a few blurry
ones of my new playroom(s) one, two, three,
four, five.
It's kind of a duality thing: one side dark and brooding, the
other side a pink, Barbie dungeon.
Why: Because it amuses me.
What's with the all the body mod stuff:
I've always been fascinated with the many modifications that can be
done to the flesh, whether in fantasy or reality. My interests
range anywhere from ultra-feminization and bimboness to defeminization
and reduction to a fetish object. The body, to me, is like a
canvas that can be decorated and remade in wonderful ways.. as is the
mind. Of
course, what is wonderful to me may be disturbing to most people.
Most if this is fantasy, but some of it can be real. I so look
forward to having the opportunity to do some of these things
in real life to a willing subject. I have no particular mods
myself, other than the gender change thing, which is pretty drastic in
itself.
Okay, what's with the dolls and
masks: Ooh, I dunno. They're pretty and cute.
I suppose there's some correlation between them and wanting a live doll
I can dress up and play with whenever I wish. And there's
probably something pathological behind having perfect feminine faces
staring blank-eyed and expressionless from the walls, but I don't
bother to delve too deeply into it. Here's some of my collection
of such things: pic1, pic 2, pic
3, pic 4, pic 5, pic
6, pic 7, pic 8.
Miscellaneous likes: I
like various shades of pink and purple. I like fluffy mimosa
flowers and
thunderstorms. I like wind and autumn and cloudy skies. I
like snow when it's not knocking out my power. Seeing a girl sob
and beg and writhe from
consensual suffering willingly given makes me giggle with sheer
delight. I'm into
most fetishes you can name. I have a ridiculously large porn
collection. I like the sound cicadas make in summer.
Well, that's a pretty general summation. If there's anything else
you wanted to know, ask. I might tell. Also, if you have a
morbid fascination with my random rambling, you check out my Live Jounal
page. I update it from time to time.
